Yes I'm still here!

So it's been a while since I posted anything. These last two weeks have just been crazy. All the kids had a 24 hour flu and then we all got struck down with THE most horrible cold ever. Really bad cough and congestion and Hudson got it the worst. Everytime he coughed he threw up...ugh. Poor little guy.

Amazingly through it all I have managed to stay on track everyday except one....this past Friday. I was so sick of all the hard work not paying off and seeing no change in the scale on friday's weigh in that I just let myself have a crappy feel sorry for myself day. I ate with the family and was PISSED when the next day I saw the scale jump 5 lbs.....SERIOUSLY????!!! I didn't pig out I just ate small portions of what the family was having (one being pizza) but I sure as heck didn't eat five pounds of food. I was soooooo disappointed and immediately went to my elliptical and did my run. Since then I have been back on track and definitely feeling different.

I definitely feel changes in my bodies shape. I'm looking in the mirror more often whereas before I would always avoid my reflection. Even when brushing my teeth I used to look away from the mirror. Now I am beginning to find things to like in the mirror. I'm seeing a more curvy shape and less flab lol. Even if it's my own disillusionment I feel like the changes are big enough for me to see. I'm walking a little taller and prouder these days and that feels good.

Cheyanne went to the Speech Pathologist yesterday and it was interesting to say the least. We started on the "t" sound at the beginning of words because she usually says "h" instead. She modelled the "t" sound like 5 times in a row at the beginning of the session and then for the rest of the time she just said "I can't say that" or "I don't know". She wasn't frustrated at all she just didn't care to try. I felt like she was thinking "Lady....I get along just fine...everyone knows what I mean and I get what I want.....I don't care about getting it right." lol I have some activities to do with her at home for the week but she's more interested in coloring them than doing them and Lauren (her older sister) wants to do the activities even though she doesn't need them.

Lauren went for swimming lessons again last night. She absolutely loves it and is not scared of trying anything. For most of the lessons she was climbing out of the pool and jumping into the deep end. Then she tried diving under the water and she came up with a huge grin on her face and yelled at me "I did it mom! I swam under the water!" She did it at least five more times before the lessons were over. She also poured water over another childs head a few times and I had to yell at her to stop...ugh. Then a few minuted later the child got her back and I was pleased to see that she didn't freak out. I mean I don't think she did it maliciously but she's got to know that it's not nice to do because some kids might not like it at all.

Anywho I think I've caught you up on everything. I'm going to enjoy the rest of my day. Everyone seems on the mend from this cold so the mood is a little better around here! Have a wonderful day!

Bad Week!

Ok this week has been tough. Surprisingly not the diet or excercise but my whole crew has been sick. I am so tired of cleaning up puke and washing sets of bedding. This week was going to be a busy week anyways but now it just seems neverending. Lauren started her swimming lessons on Tuesday and did really well. She goes again tonight if she's feeling well enough. This morning she told me that her tummy hurts.....:( . I haven't gotten a phone call from the school yet so I'm assuming she's doing okay. Cheyanne has been sick for two days in a row and Hudson just started this morning. It's horrible to have a sick baby. They can't tell you they are sick or control where it goes and I just feel plain bad for him.

I've refused to talk to my hubby the last two nights. He calls and talks to the kids and then I hang up. He knows how tough it is just to have 3 kids all alone when they are well......but to have 3 sick kids all week.....well lets just say I'm wasted. He's only an hour and a half away....if he really wanted to he could drive home to help me out and then go back in the morning.....but NO he just thinks I should suffer. Well who knows what he thinks since I won't talk to him lol.

Anyways enough complaining...it's just been one of those weeks. I can't believe I have now worked out 13 days out of 15.....I am so proud of myself. GO ME!!

Success

Well I am officially deeming this weekend as a success. Mike came home and I not only managed to stay on track diet wise but I also got in my 30 min runs each day. I went out and bought new workout clothes and it definitely helps me get in the mindset. I think if I put them on each morning it will be a constant reminder to actually do it. Today was the first day I would almost say that my run was easy. Crazy how only 10 days ago it was tough I think my age might help me out a little because my body remembers being healthy not that long ago.

Anyways nothing exciting happened this weekend. We basically just hung around and enjoyed having dad home. He's leaving again in a few hours so I better get off of here and enjoy it. See you all tomorrow!

Proud

I am so proud of myself today. I woke up an extra hour early thanks to one of my daughters fooling with my alarm clock sometime yesterday. I was really sore and thinking all morning...I'll just wait until tonight when Mike is home to get in my run. But the more I thought about it the more I knew I had to get it in this morning or it probably wouldn't happen. So I did it!!!!! I have to admit it is getting a little easier. I used to run every once in a while for 20 mins but the extra 10 really makes a difference.

So I'm down 11 lbs already....wow it was so nice to see that number. If I really wanted to depress myself I could say that it's only 3 cause the other 8 was from the holidays........but I'm not going to think of that. This week my body is definitely letting me know that it's tired but if I can just plow through I think I will be able to do it. Mind over matter I guess. I was thinking I should make myself some stars or something and put one up on the fridge for every pound I've lost. I really need to treat food as fuel, and not as my friend, something to do when I'm bored, or something to just pack away unconciously. Tonight I told hubby that we are going to have tacos....I'm not going to have the tortilla as I have sayed away from carbs and sugars so far....but I'm glad that I can share a meal with everyone.

Can't wait for hubby to come home in about 4 hours!!! Maybe he might even notice a change in me......lol probably not.

Last Chance Workout!

That has been rolling around my head all day. I know now the key is to get my workouts in early when I have the energy. So I took Lauren to school came home and has breakfast and then did 30 mins TaeBo. I'm hoping to run tonight for 30 mins on my elliptical too. I really want the scale to jump and show me that hard work pays off. I am already noticing changes in my clothes....YAY!!

Mike will be home tomorrow and that's when the real challenges begin. I have to convince him that he will benefit from me being healthier and happier. I also need to do all the grocery shopping and preparing that I can while he's home. I've been doing better this year with him gone....not as depressed. I'm still a little lonely at nights. It's snowing right now so I know I have some snow shovelling ahead of me.....that is unless my godsend of a neighbour snow blows my sidewalk for me (he's done that a lot this year <3). Hudson is sleeping and Cheyanne is watching Enchanted so I need to get some house chores done. Just wanted to document on here how awesome I am feeling!!!! I can't believe the difference a week makes!

Much Needed Rest!

So I finally reached my rest day...ahhhhhhh! I think my body really needed it....or at least that's how it felt this morning. I woke up and didn't feel great. I didn't want to put all the work into following todays diet but I didn't want to sabotage myself either. So I stuck with the plan. I'm working on a meal plan today. I think the tough days will come when Mike is home on the weekends. He's bound to want to eat stuff that I can't and I just hope that he understands that it's not that I don't like what he makes it's just that I can't have it right now at this point in my life. I am most likely going to have to make food for my family and something separate for me. I'm trying to find ways to make stuff for them that I can also eat. Like steak, rice and veggies....but I could skip the rice.

Here's the big key.........planning! I need to make sure I have everything on hand so that I don't have an excuse to cheat. I need to go to the grocery store and have everything for their meals and mine.....that is my task today. So far so good today. I ate eggwhites and grapefruit for breakfast, a few almonds, a pear, a turkey cesaer salad salad for lunch (we had a huge turkey for new years day dinner so I'm still finishing it off....it's actually a blessing cause it's already all cooked). I'm feeling better and know my body is thanking me for feeding it right. I hope to see the payoff on fridays weigh in.

Finally Day 6!

Today was such a busy day. Up at 7:30 and got Lauren and everyone else ready and walked her to school. It's a nice winter day today so it was a bonus to not be freezing! Then I got all my house work done and watched a bit of Oprah. I had to take Hudson for his 4 month immunizations today. He did really well. He's 14.7lbs and 26 inches long.

Then I went and signed Lauren up for swimming lessons, took Cheyanne to the library for an hour. Went and picked up Lauren and 3pm and got home talked to my sis a bit for support, fed Hudson, laid him down for a nap. AND bribed the girls so that I could get my run in while baby was sleeping. Hey they are cheap to bribe they only wanted a juice box. lol

Now Hudson is awake and I need to make dinner for all of us and get the girls to bed. Then time to relax. I have been working out for 6 days straight now...wow. And I am taking tomorrow as a much needed day off. Yup just going to enjoy the day and focus on not sabottaging all my hard work!